I am 21 years old. I live in Finland, i work at an artschool for children. I value a diet free from all kind of additives and other toxins. I love to paint, i love nature, i love everything, and i love you.Instagram/kik: kallvar
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I just bleached the shit out of it! :O And then i extended my dreads with blonde dreads, so that kind of covered up the last of it!
(but im not blonde now if thats what you thought, that picture being reblogged is from march, i now have brown/ombre dreads! That picture gave me a lot of confused followers wondering if i went back to blonde again, apparently they couldnt read the text under the picture :P)
I eat a lot. I eat more than anyone else in my family. I just love food and i love to eat (i used to eat almost nothing at all but kept gaining weight). So why do i keep losing more weight every month? Because i dont eat that nasty shit everyone else (*most people) does. CLEAN FOOD IS THE ANSWER! I dont eat anything that has any kind of additives in it. And i dont eat sugar. And when im saying sugar im not talking about candy. IM TALKING ABOUT THE WHOLE DAMN THING! I dont even eat fruits because of the sugar in it (except apples, i have started eating apples again)! And i dont eat wheat, barley, rye or oats. I dont use any dairy products except goat feta cheese (which i just brought back to my diet). I do yoga almost every day and i workout 2-3 times a week. I am also doing some quite hard work out in our garden 1-7 hours/day.
… And that, my dear friend, is the secret to my body.
What are you talking about, my dear?
Oh god why
I ordered some tattoo- and piercing stuff, and when i had finished the order and paid for it and everything, i fucking realize that i forgot practice skins for tattooing, which i am in a terrible need of since i dont wanna go all big on my own skin when i still have no clue what the fuck im doing. I mean, these small things are no big deal, ive already found it being not hard at all, but for bigger designs… i fucking need those skins. And the shipping is over 10 euro. So, now i have to pay another 10 euro just to get those mothafuckin skins. Gah. Problems!! :D haha
I believe i never showed you a proper pic of that one.
Hello there sunshine!
I would recommend you to search on youtube for “yoga for beginners” and find something that fits you. Theres a lot of great videos up there ^^
I think this was the very first yoga i did, and i felt like that was a very good start for me. Very easy but oh so nice for your body!
Recently i have been looking for some nice kundalini yoga videos as well, but i havent yet found any i want to stick to. Anyhow, i will post the video here on tumblr when i find one that i really like ^^
You too! Hope youre having a great day and that the rest of your week will be even better :)
Jag vet inte hur jag ska svara på det här, för det kunde varit jag själv som skrivit texten. Och ifall jag inte kan lyssna på den hjälp jag försöker ge mig själv, hur ska jag då kunna hjälpa någon annan?
Hur ska jag kunna säga åt dig att det inte spelar nån jävla roll hur du ser ut, ifall jag själv i åratal levt med det handikapp bdd är.
Det enda jag kan säga är, ge inte upp. Snälla, ge inte upp, vad du än gör. Det blir lättare med åren, det kan jag nästan lova dig. Eller, lättare på det sätt att du kommer bli så fruktansvärt trött att du slutar tänka på det. Du hatar fortfarande ditt utseende, och har svårt att klara av att vara bland människor, men du lär dig att vara glad ändå. Lycklig.
För mig har det varit så. Jag tycker fortfarande att jag är ett fruktansvärt träskmonster som måste gömma sig för människor för att inte utsätta de stackarna för det hemska i att behöva se mig. Men jag har på nåt sätt delat upp mitt liv i två delar, eller lådor. Ena lådan som handlar om mitt självhat, och den andra lådan som är allt det andra, allt det där jag älskar; varenda liten millimeter av livet. Och så låter jag de här två lådorna leva bredvid varandra, men jag är noga med att inte låta självhatsdelen inkräkta för mycket på den andra lådan. Självhatet fortsätter att styra endel, till exempel genom mitt behov att gömma mitt ansikte, men jag låter det inte inverka på min glädje. Jag har placerat glädjen i den andra lådan, och där slipper inte självhatet in. Den kan inte rubba min glädje. Den kan ge mig dåliga dagar då jag är ledsen, men den kan inte rubba min riktiga glädje.
Nu vet jag ju inte vem du är eller i vilket stadie i livet du är, men jag skulle iallafall vilja tipsa dig om att läsa lite om egot och hur det funkar. Det har hjälpt mig jättemycket, kanske det kan lätta lite för dig med?
Och hördu du, jag finns alltid, ALLTID, här, ifall du behöver lätta på trycket åt någon. Eller bara prata om vadsomhelst. Och har du ingen tumblr och är obekväm med att allt hamnar ut på min tumblr då du skriver som anonym, så kan du alltid mejla mig på kallvar@hotmail.com ifall du föredrar det. För mig spelar det ingen roll, du bestämmer själv.
Stor stor stor kram, underbara människa <3
Finally at the cabin
Arent we all amazing and beautiful? ^^
How tanned am i?! My sinc levels are finally almost back to normal (i think), which means i can get tanned again! Wohoo!
(my arms though, they look superpale in this pic for some reason?)
Want to know what it looks like where i live? Well, here you go. A picture i took from the balcony earlier today.
I was going to brush my teeth and go to bed, but ended up on the floor with a pen and paper. ALEX! GO TO BED NOW!
Leave it open.
“Human beings are the only animals who have to work, and I think that is the most ridiculous thing in the world. Other animals make their livings by living, but people work like crazy, thinking that they have to in order to stay alive. The bigger the job, the greater the challenge, the more wonderful they think it is. It would be good to give up that way of thinking and live an easy, comfortable life with plenty of free time. I think that the way animals live in the tropics, stepping outside in the morning and evening to see if there is something to eat, and taking a long nap in the afternoon, must be a wonderful life. For human beings, a life of such simplicity would be possible if one worked to produce directly his daily necessities. In such a life, work is not work as people generally think of it, but simply doing what needs to be done.”
Masanobu Fukuoka
I decided i need some time away. Time off. I have been crying all day and just as i start to think im done crying, another wave of sadness hits me. First, the sadness was just about that i miss my friend so much, but as the crying came to the state when it reaches some kind of panic mode, i began to cry about that im not out at the cabin, as well. When i get into panic mode, it gets so so hard for me to think or function and everything around me is consuming me. It is so many THINGS everywhere and so many noises and it feels like the walls are getting closer. I just need to get out to the cabin, get away from all the THINGS and all the noises. I need to get out to that place where the only noises are from the sea and the woods and the birds. To my sanctuary.
So, i will go out there tomorrow. And i will only bring my books and food. For days, i will not do anything but eat and read and enjoy the sun and the sea and my own company.
Just the way i like it. No, love it.
Fujifilm Fujifilm A170 A180
