Today is one of those days when anything and everything makes me cry. The boiled eggs that ended up in the trash, the clip I filmed on my walk, that was too long to send, the hair that is fucking ugly, the person who knocked on my door this morning (leave me alone, I want to be alone!! Is it so hard to understand that I will never open the door?), people saying the wrong words. Everything. I want to be mean, I want to destroy everything. I’m a wreck.
So, so nervous. Two weeks and three/four days left until the second big step (the first big step was the call I made in January). And after the second big step, I will take the third and the final step, the really big step, in 1-3 months or so. Oh my god oh my god I’m gonna throw up.